April

Everyone as well as myself was wondering when this would finally be over.

I was so happy that I was finally feeling good. I was finally healthy. We called the doctor and they told us not to worry because these were probably some smaller pieces of the kidney stones that were passing through. Thankfully, these pieces weren't as excruciating as they were in February.

The most pain I felt was pain over once again having to give up my teenage life. Once again good health was dangled in front of my face, but kept out of my reach. I did everything I knew to do so I could get better, but it wasn't enough.

We made the decision that no matter when I got better, I would continue the rest of the year on home bound schooling and return to school in the fall for my junior year. The choice was daunting, but necessary. Leaving school for the third time was almost as painful as the pain involved with my endometriosis and kidney stones.

I worked so hard for nothing and I was back in bed. Everyone was getting restless. Every day I tried my hardest to work towards good health, but my pain never went down. I got on a new hormone therapy-- third time is a charm, and worked my way back from square one... again.

Because everyone was restless, tensions were high. The stress kept me in pain. People walked out of my life, and looking back, I know now that it was for the best. It was painful then, and I finally got to the heartache that people my age go through, instead of the endometriosis pain that was not normal for a fifteen year old. It was so hard to work as hard as I could to get better for people, just for them to walk out of my life as soon as I showed any bit of improvement. It was so hard. But I'd been through enough, that I wasn't going to let anyone take away the future I had worked for. Through the pain, I had worked. Through the tears, I had worked. When there was no one by my side, I had worked. And I was not about to give up now.

Each day, I continued to grow stronger and stronger. I stopped taking pain medicine and started learning how to work through the pain. Each day, I started seeing health I had never seen before. Each day, I returned to the person I hadn't seen for a full year. Each day, I returned more and more to myself. And I knew now that this is the feeling I had worked so hard for. This moment right now was the reward I had suffered through a year for. I was finally better. And the day I realized just how healthy I was, was the happiest feeling I had ever felt in my short fifteen years of life.